i would like to preface this entry with a reminder of my first entry.  i gave fair warning that i was bad at keeping up with things like this.  i am aware it's been almost 3 months since my last entry...but what can i say!?

i can't really catch up on my 3 months of being absent, but i would like to share with you my past week.  I will start the week with last Saturday, when i played in a beirut tournament where i would like to say i won at least two games.  it may have been more, but i cant remember...  needless to say the day was pretty much a blur as i started at 1pm and went until 7 drinking continously.  at some point, which i was informed the next day, one my games turned into strip beirut, but i take the fifth on that one!!  i pretty much passed out by 10 that night.

onto sunday, where i spent all reading 400pgs for my midterm that week, and attempting to start the 25pg paper i had due friday.  monday i was caught in a torential downpour and was soaked for the next 8hrs.  tuesday was spent writing my paper, again, and attempting to study for the midterm on wed in the same class the paper is due!  at 1am, my computer decides to crash on pg 17 of my paper, i give up and finally go to bed at 3.  the next day i fail the midterm i had as i had no way of memorizing facts from 900pgs of text.  wed i got caught in another torential downpour.  later that night i acciddentaly erased the phone numbers in my cell phone.  dont ask!   thur i worked on finishing up my paper.  i also lost $6 somehow.  i saw the passion that night, which put me in a strange mood for trying to finish my paper, which i finished my 27thpg at 2am.  this takes us to today where all i can say is im glad it's friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am in the process of waiting for grad school letters....they should have started coming this past week.  as a back up measure, ive been trying to apply for jobs in the midst of all this maddness!  the reality of the real world is starting to hit me, but i look forward to enjoying everyday of my last quarter!!!

haha, this was way to long, and you are truly a great friend if you made it through all this and are reading this last line =)!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would like to start by having you all notice I changed the font, since I received a number of complaints.  Secondly, I have no idea why the dates are all messed up on the entries, not my fault....

As graduation is coming this June, I have been forced to confront thoughts of my future.  What do I want to do?  Where do I want to go?  Am I qualified enough to do anything?  These are the thoughts I have been grappling with for a few months now.  After much thought, I came to the conclusion I wanted to pursue graduate school.  I thought this would be much like the whole college process, but I was sorely mistaken.  Let me tell you, this process comes to consume your entire life.  For almost 3 months now, I have had to do something grad school related almost everyday of the week.  You have to decide where you want to go (definitely getting out of California for a while), what you want to study, what you want to focus in.  If it's not writting the perfect personal statement, it's studying for the GRE, if not studying, it's setting up appointments for recommenendations.  The entire process is truly never ending.  Then, if not worring about getting into the schools isnt bad enough, you have to worry about financial aid because grad schools are unbelievably expensive.  The schools want to know every minute detail of your life, but summed up in 200 words or less.  Someday I will be done with this process, and hopefully it will turn out in my favor.  So, a little advice from someone who knows, STAY IN COLLEGE AS LONG AS YOU CAN!!!